Sorry about my absence yesterday, I had a shower to go to and I didn't get home until late, I had a licensing exam to take this morning so I chose to neglect the internet and study up.
I havent weighed myself since the hiccup I had. I started fresh this morning on pure protein. Attack phase take 2. On top of that it's about to be my time of the month i can feel it. and I'm craving bad. But I can do this.
For breakfast this morning I had a little bit of vanilla 0 fat chobani, just like 2 tbsp, and I mixed it with my 1.5 tbsp of oat bran. I actually like the texture a lot it's like that cereal yogurt Activia used to make. I decided to go shopping after my exam for some proteins, so I got more pain yogurt, some beef cubes to make skewers tonight, some stirfry beef I made for lunch, I also got some thin chicken and some ground turkey. So far so good.
This summer is full of parties and functions I have to go to, and I hate going because I hate how I look, That's sad, but I plan on using it as motivation for this diet to work. I can't wait to start seeing results but I'm a far cry off the that.
Tonight is my favorite night for television so that means I need to go and be active since I plan on sitting around on my carcass from 8 pm until I go to sleep.
Hoope evryone is having a wonderful day and success along the way. Remember, Just for today.
xx Baye.
My Dukan Jouney
My Steps to success
Monday, June 27, 2011
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Lunch
My take on Chinese chicken
2 thin chicken breasts
About half tbsp Dijon mustard
3 tbsp low sodium soy sauce
1.5 tbsp low sodium low sugar teriyaki sauce
2 tbsp plain nonfat Greek yogurt
3 tbsp chopped garlic
-- mixed all together and placed bite sized chicken in to marinate (I only did about 10 minutes an the flavor is strong)
-- cooked over medium heat until all sauce reduced and chicken was cooked through. About 10 minutes
I have a sinking feeling this would be great with tofu too.
Regression
Morning, Happy Saturday everyone.
Well, I know I said I would post again when I got home last night but I was so exhausted when I got home I just decided to skip it. I'm totally bummed out. I just weighed myself. 187.2. Thats an increase from Thursday. It really proves that no matter what the slip up is, it really affects you.
I can't believe I let myself eat that piece of pizza. Who knew that one piece of pizza could really do that much damage. I'll never make that mistake again.
Today is the surprise party at the habachi restaurant I love, I was planning on ordering Habachi chicken and eating just the vegetables and chicken and say forget the rice, but I guess I'll have to say forget the vegetables too since I just lengthened my attack phase :( One mistake and it royally screwed me! I really learned my lession with that one. My original plan was to stick to attack phase for 7 days, but with the weight gain I'm going to do.. 10.. god be with me!
I was reading a blog yesterday, www.undressedskeleton.tumblr.com this chick is awesome. She lost over 90 pounds the right way. She's so adorable, i'm envious. She has some awesome recipes too that when I can, I would love to try out. Everything she does is high protein low carb, and it's her lifestyle.
I need to make some proposed changes in my already changed diet, and the first is MORE MEAT PROTEINS. Dr. Dukan gave us 100 different foods, and I have been tip toeing aaround them like I don't like them, when that's not true. Me and chicken, we're meant for eachother. Turkey is my love child. Lean beef and I had a secret affair! So why am I only eating a little bit of these and filling myself with nonfat yogurt? because I'm lazy that's why. Get off your ass and cook something healthy damnit!!
For breakfast this morning I think I'll try an oatbran galette and have a HUGE bottle of water before I head to the mall for my eyebrows, where I will then stop at starbucks and have a HUGE iced coffee with a splenda and nonfat milk. I will then come home and go for a run around the block. I'll let you know how that works out.
6/20/11 ; 189.6
6/21/11 ; 189.0
6/22/11 ; 187.6
6/23/11 ; 186.0
6/25/11 ; 187.2 (kill me now)
Just for today I'll go hardcore with the Dukan
xx Baye.
Well, I know I said I would post again when I got home last night but I was so exhausted when I got home I just decided to skip it. I'm totally bummed out. I just weighed myself. 187.2. Thats an increase from Thursday. It really proves that no matter what the slip up is, it really affects you.
I can't believe I let myself eat that piece of pizza. Who knew that one piece of pizza could really do that much damage. I'll never make that mistake again.
Today is the surprise party at the habachi restaurant I love, I was planning on ordering Habachi chicken and eating just the vegetables and chicken and say forget the rice, but I guess I'll have to say forget the vegetables too since I just lengthened my attack phase :( One mistake and it royally screwed me! I really learned my lession with that one. My original plan was to stick to attack phase for 7 days, but with the weight gain I'm going to do.. 10.. god be with me!
I was reading a blog yesterday, www.undressedskeleton.tumblr.com this chick is awesome. She lost over 90 pounds the right way. She's so adorable, i'm envious. She has some awesome recipes too that when I can, I would love to try out. Everything she does is high protein low carb, and it's her lifestyle.
I need to make some proposed changes in my already changed diet, and the first is MORE MEAT PROTEINS. Dr. Dukan gave us 100 different foods, and I have been tip toeing aaround them like I don't like them, when that's not true. Me and chicken, we're meant for eachother. Turkey is my love child. Lean beef and I had a secret affair! So why am I only eating a little bit of these and filling myself with nonfat yogurt? because I'm lazy that's why. Get off your ass and cook something healthy damnit!!
For breakfast this morning I think I'll try an oatbran galette and have a HUGE bottle of water before I head to the mall for my eyebrows, where I will then stop at starbucks and have a HUGE iced coffee with a splenda and nonfat milk. I will then come home and go for a run around the block. I'll let you know how that works out.
6/20/11 ; 189.6
6/21/11 ; 189.0
6/22/11 ; 187.6
6/23/11 ; 186.0
6/25/11 ; 187.2 (kill me now)
Just for today I'll go hardcore with the Dukan
xx Baye.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Day 5 ;(
Well. Remember my acheivemebts over the past few days? Yeah well today i achieved nothing but failure. Shame on me. I had to bring my puppy to the vet today early I didn't get. Chance to eat breakfast. I came home and had to run out shopping with my mother because she needed help stocking up for the big independence day party next week. All I had a chance to do wS shove a tsp of nonfat cottage cheese in my mouth. Three hours later we get out of the store I was so hungry I grabbed two reduced fat cheese sticks and a diet coke to ease the hunger pangs. Finally we get home and I had an appt for a mani pedi tgat I normally would have cancelled but I have two events this weekend and I couldn't put it off. The salon was overly crowded and they were running so behind it took me almost 4 hours but I had to do it. Nothing for lunch because I was not about to eat mcdonalds! I finally got home near 5 pm and I was starving. I showered but not before eating another cheese stick. Uh oh. For a quick half assed dinner i grabbed a can of tuna and put some mustard nonfat cream cheese salt pepper garlic and onion powder in it. Not that satisfying so I had a fat free sugar free pudding. Just wait this gets worse. At least up till this point I was Dukan attack friendly. The boyfriend called and needed me to come with my suv to pick something up from home depot. Ofcourse the Oreos were out on the counter so I ate 2. :-x. I get to his house and he ordered margarita pizza from my all time favorite resturant. If you're wondering if I ate it, the answer is yes. One slice.
I'm so disappointed in myself. I was almost through this attack phase. I know it's not the end of the world but I also know it set me back.
I didnt weigh myself this morning so when I weigh myself tomorrow wel see if there's a difference on the scale.
On another disappointing note I missed my oat bran yesterday and today. Maybe I'll eat it when I get home that would be good.
I'm slacking major I just realized i need to eat more protein meat like chicken breast and turkey breast and stuff. I'm getting a lot of dairy more than anything else. Granted it is all nonfat but still. I need a good seasoning for my meats. Any suggestions?
I'll post again when I get home. I typed this on my iPhone as I lay next to a snoring boyfriend. I'm hungry. Damnit. Ok kids talk to you in about an hour
Xx Baye.
I'm so disappointed in myself. I was almost through this attack phase. I know it's not the end of the world but I also know it set me back.
I didnt weigh myself this morning so when I weigh myself tomorrow wel see if there's a difference on the scale.
On another disappointing note I missed my oat bran yesterday and today. Maybe I'll eat it when I get home that would be good.
I'm slacking major I just realized i need to eat more protein meat like chicken breast and turkey breast and stuff. I'm getting a lot of dairy more than anything else. Granted it is all nonfat but still. I need a good seasoning for my meats. Any suggestions?
I'll post again when I get home. I typed this on my iPhone as I lay next to a snoring boyfriend. I'm hungry. Damnit. Ok kids talk to you in about an hour
Xx Baye.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Friends..
So I'm going to kind of rant a little bit, you don't have to read this but I need to get it out. This morning as I was making my new found favorite yogurt [non fat plain greek yogurt sprinkled with some non fat sugar free instant pudding mix] my friend called me. She's a great friend, honestly my only friend that I really see, I have some friends but I dont know if I would really attribute them to "friend" status as much as glorified aquantinces, but any way, she called me and she was upset [not something new]. She asked me if I wanted to meet up and go with her to a local walmart. I of course said yes. This particular friend has struggled with issues her whole life. From obesity, over eating, to alcohol and drugs. She just now is getting a hang of how to live her life without over indulging in opressive substances, be it food, pills, or booz. But now its another issue
She was rambling on and on and I'm listening my best and she said something to the tune of "and im so trying to be thin-spo..." I had no idea what that meant. "Thinspiration" oh Christ, here we go.
Now as I'm dealing with my own dieting I have to hear about thinspiration?! what is this world coming to? She starts telling me about how they have websites with pictures of nothing but a plate with a fork knife and a cigarette? really now? By this point I was craving some Reese's i know she needed to talk about how she was feeling, and I would never tell her to stop. But all that thin-spo talk was wearing me down. I normally have the patience of a saint. But today, I almost lost it on her.
Okay that rant is over. I am thinking of looking up this thin-spo stuff, see what kind of garbage she is filling her head with now.
Lunch - Just took my lunch out of the over, I took two slices of thin thin chicken breast (i hate thick chicken breast) grilled up two pieces of turkey bacon, took about two tbsp of fat free cream cheese mixed it with some garlic, salt, pepper, and poultry seasoning, slathered it on the chicken breast and topped it with the diced turkey bacon. It's actually dynamite. I wonder if I could fake this as a dinner and make my boyfriend eat it.
On the boyfriend note. Gosh I love him. He's trying to loose weight too. He's been eating healthier than before. He's lost about 20 pounds over the past few months but he's been slacking latley. Yesterday when I came clean about the dukan diet to him, he said he wanted to buckle down and stop eating junk again (he has this affinity for sour chewy candy, he can eat bags at a time) I suggested that he try to do the dukan diet with me, but he said he couldn't live on it and he also said he can't cook. He makes a point there. He lives with his father and he loves his starches. Potatoes with every meal. Boy I miss potatoes....maybe when I loose enough weight that it is noticeable he will change his mind.
Until next time
Just for today
xx Baye.
She was rambling on and on and I'm listening my best and she said something to the tune of "and im so trying to be thin-spo..." I had no idea what that meant. "Thinspiration" oh Christ, here we go.
Now as I'm dealing with my own dieting I have to hear about thinspiration?! what is this world coming to? She starts telling me about how they have websites with pictures of nothing but a plate with a fork knife and a cigarette? really now? By this point I was craving some Reese's i know she needed to talk about how she was feeling, and I would never tell her to stop. But all that thin-spo talk was wearing me down. I normally have the patience of a saint. But today, I almost lost it on her.
Okay that rant is over. I am thinking of looking up this thin-spo stuff, see what kind of garbage she is filling her head with now.
Lunch - Just took my lunch out of the over, I took two slices of thin thin chicken breast (i hate thick chicken breast) grilled up two pieces of turkey bacon, took about two tbsp of fat free cream cheese mixed it with some garlic, salt, pepper, and poultry seasoning, slathered it on the chicken breast and topped it with the diced turkey bacon. It's actually dynamite. I wonder if I could fake this as a dinner and make my boyfriend eat it.
On the boyfriend note. Gosh I love him. He's trying to loose weight too. He's been eating healthier than before. He's lost about 20 pounds over the past few months but he's been slacking latley. Yesterday when I came clean about the dukan diet to him, he said he wanted to buckle down and stop eating junk again (he has this affinity for sour chewy candy, he can eat bags at a time) I suggested that he try to do the dukan diet with me, but he said he couldn't live on it and he also said he can't cook. He makes a point there. He lives with his father and he loves his starches. Potatoes with every meal. Boy I miss potatoes....maybe when I loose enough weight that it is noticeable he will change his mind.
Until next time
Just for today
xx Baye.
Day 4
Ah, here I am !
Day 3 was ROUGH! I actually dreamt about italian twist sweet bread with butter. Hey fatty how are you? Yesterday was successful for the most part. I didn't cheat, but it was rough. Went to the movies, the boyfriend was hungry, he got mozzerella sticks and offered me some. I said no thank you and I decided to tell him i'm trying to eat only protein for a week as a cleanse. He was supportive but threw in the 'one mozzerella stick wont kill you' but i stuck to my guns and said no. I ate greek yogurt and 2 hard boiled eggs. Weird movie snack but it was good.
I'm down another 1.6 lbs today. 186. I know I said i wouldn't weigh myself today but I had to. Starting tomorrow morning, I will weigh myself every 2 days. so I can monitor myself but not obsess. Im proud of myself.
I'm going to try my hand at dukan baking and try and make a this pink cheesecake cupcake recipe. I'll let you know how it goes.
I'm going to check in in a few hours again. thanks for reading guys. I really appreciate it
6/20/11 ; 189.6
6/21/11 ; 189.0
6/22/11 ; 187.6
6/23/11 ; 186.0
xx Baye.
Day 3 was ROUGH! I actually dreamt about italian twist sweet bread with butter. Hey fatty how are you? Yesterday was successful for the most part. I didn't cheat, but it was rough. Went to the movies, the boyfriend was hungry, he got mozzerella sticks and offered me some. I said no thank you and I decided to tell him i'm trying to eat only protein for a week as a cleanse. He was supportive but threw in the 'one mozzerella stick wont kill you' but i stuck to my guns and said no. I ate greek yogurt and 2 hard boiled eggs. Weird movie snack but it was good.
I'm down another 1.6 lbs today. 186. I know I said i wouldn't weigh myself today but I had to. Starting tomorrow morning, I will weigh myself every 2 days. so I can monitor myself but not obsess. Im proud of myself.
I'm going to try my hand at dukan baking and try and make a this pink cheesecake cupcake recipe. I'll let you know how it goes.
I'm going to check in in a few hours again. thanks for reading guys. I really appreciate it
6/20/11 ; 189.6
6/21/11 ; 189.0
6/22/11 ; 187.6
6/23/11 ; 186.0
xx Baye.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Day 3
Good Morning everyone!
So I know I shouldn't be checking my weight everyday, but I caved (embarassed) Good news is im down another 1.4 pounds in just 1 day!! that's exciting. It's really motivating.
Yesterday I turned down so much i'm very proud of myself. My boyfriend got Dominos and I didn't eat it even when he and his father told me it was 'so good today' boy was that hard. When I got home at night I was so hungry and there were pretzels and oreos sitting on the kitchen island (anyone that knows anything about me knows my affinity for oreos. it's so bad, i could eat a box a day) I resisted them though, I settled for a handfull of fat free shredded cheddar cheese, a slice of low fat low sodium deli ham, and a sugar free jello cup. I was full, but i was really missing my oreos!
I've been looking online for some dukan friendly deserts i found some, but i'm always afraid to try them because they sweetened with sweetner like splenda. Now don't get me wrong I love splenda, but when you get into using excess amounts, upwards of a few tablespoons, the food begins to taste awful. I feel bad wasting so many ingredients that normally would have been fine to use, but the splenda ruined it. Anyone have any good dukan friendly desert recipes that they know the splenda doesn't ruin? send them my way.
The boyfriend is off work today, he wants to go see a matinee, i think i'll be okay as long as I bring some water maybe some fat free cheese with me. Today's going to be hard. I just need to keep remembering yesterdays 1.4 lb loss. Just for today.
xx Baye.
6/20/11 ; 189.6
6/21/11 ; 189.0
6/22/11 ; 187.6
So I know I shouldn't be checking my weight everyday, but I caved (embarassed) Good news is im down another 1.4 pounds in just 1 day!! that's exciting. It's really motivating.
Yesterday I turned down so much i'm very proud of myself. My boyfriend got Dominos and I didn't eat it even when he and his father told me it was 'so good today' boy was that hard. When I got home at night I was so hungry and there were pretzels and oreos sitting on the kitchen island (anyone that knows anything about me knows my affinity for oreos. it's so bad, i could eat a box a day) I resisted them though, I settled for a handfull of fat free shredded cheddar cheese, a slice of low fat low sodium deli ham, and a sugar free jello cup. I was full, but i was really missing my oreos!
I've been looking online for some dukan friendly deserts i found some, but i'm always afraid to try them because they sweetened with sweetner like splenda. Now don't get me wrong I love splenda, but when you get into using excess amounts, upwards of a few tablespoons, the food begins to taste awful. I feel bad wasting so many ingredients that normally would have been fine to use, but the splenda ruined it. Anyone have any good dukan friendly desert recipes that they know the splenda doesn't ruin? send them my way.
The boyfriend is off work today, he wants to go see a matinee, i think i'll be okay as long as I bring some water maybe some fat free cheese with me. Today's going to be hard. I just need to keep remembering yesterdays 1.4 lb loss. Just for today.
xx Baye.
6/20/11 ; 189.6
6/21/11 ; 189.0
6/22/11 ; 187.6
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Day 2
Hiya =]
Well, day 2 has approached. Meaning day 1 has come and gone. I got on the scale this morning, i lost .6 pounds. I guess thats good for not really doing anything. I know I didn't drink the right amount of water and I don't think i walked enough either.
It was definitely hard to go straight protein yesterday. I was very hungry toward the end of the night. But i made it through it and i'm proud of myself. Just for today I'll stick to all protein. I hope to loose atleast another half a pound today.
I do have a question for anyone reading - Does anyone ever have a problem with their digital scale? I notice that sometimes I'll get on the scale and it will say something and i'll get on it 4 minutes later and it will say something completely different, not just by a few ounces, but by a few pounds. I'm not one of those crazy people that weigh themselves excessivley because lets be honest, I dont want to weigh myself ever! but on my previous weight loss stint I was checking the accuacy of my digital scale to one of those dial scales and it was changing everytime I got on it. Does anyone have a suggestion as to a digital scale that they know is accurate?
I want to step it up today, maybe I'll go for a powerwalk later.
xx Baye.
ps - this 95% lean turkey bacon is wonderful, serving size is 1 piece and it has only .5 g of fat. Im loving it
Well, day 2 has approached. Meaning day 1 has come and gone. I got on the scale this morning, i lost .6 pounds. I guess thats good for not really doing anything. I know I didn't drink the right amount of water and I don't think i walked enough either.
It was definitely hard to go straight protein yesterday. I was very hungry toward the end of the night. But i made it through it and i'm proud of myself. Just for today I'll stick to all protein. I hope to loose atleast another half a pound today.
I do have a question for anyone reading - Does anyone ever have a problem with their digital scale? I notice that sometimes I'll get on the scale and it will say something and i'll get on it 4 minutes later and it will say something completely different, not just by a few ounces, but by a few pounds. I'm not one of those crazy people that weigh themselves excessivley because lets be honest, I dont want to weigh myself ever! but on my previous weight loss stint I was checking the accuacy of my digital scale to one of those dial scales and it was changing everytime I got on it. Does anyone have a suggestion as to a digital scale that they know is accurate?
I want to step it up today, maybe I'll go for a powerwalk later.
xx Baye.
ps - this 95% lean turkey bacon is wonderful, serving size is 1 piece and it has only .5 g of fat. Im loving it
Monday, June 20, 2011
Just a little hard
Hiya
So I went shopping, spent 50 bucks on ground turkey, thin chicken breast, 95%lean beef burgers, non fat shredded cheddar cheese, nonfat cream cheese, nonfat cottage cheese, nonfat milk, 95% lean turkey bacon, some dijon mustard, my oat bran, you know..basics for this diet I guess.
I had 3 eggs for breakfast with some paprika and chili powder
I made a burger well done put some fat free shredded cheese and a piece of turkey bacon on top. It was good. But I was still hungry so I took out a hard boiled egg, split it in half, scooped out the yolk and mixed it with some dijon paprika and onion powder and put it back into the white and had a little deviled egg.That was a nice snack. But I really want something sweet! My dad ate a banana right in front of me before, It looked so good, but...he doesnt know about me doing this diet so I cant be mad at him!
Well...im going to drink my water and watch Dr. Oz
Wish me luck for the rest of the day!!!
xx BAYE.
So I went shopping, spent 50 bucks on ground turkey, thin chicken breast, 95%lean beef burgers, non fat shredded cheddar cheese, nonfat cream cheese, nonfat cottage cheese, nonfat milk, 95% lean turkey bacon, some dijon mustard, my oat bran, you know..basics for this diet I guess.
I had 3 eggs for breakfast with some paprika and chili powder
I made a burger well done put some fat free shredded cheese and a piece of turkey bacon on top. It was good. But I was still hungry so I took out a hard boiled egg, split it in half, scooped out the yolk and mixed it with some dijon paprika and onion powder and put it back into the white and had a little deviled egg.That was a nice snack. But I really want something sweet! My dad ate a banana right in front of me before, It looked so good, but...he doesnt know about me doing this diet so I cant be mad at him!
Well...im going to drink my water and watch Dr. Oz
Wish me luck for the rest of the day!!!
xx BAYE.
Well, here goes nothing...
Hello faithful friends, guess what? I finished the book, it was amazing, recipes look like fun, I think I'm going to try my hand at some today. So you know what that means right? today is OFFICIALLY DAY 1!!
I woke up a bit late today, I had some tv shows on last night and I watched Burlesque at like 12:30 AM, so I didn't get to sleep until 3:00 easy. That was a good movie, I'm not sure why it got such poor reviews. Man those girls can move. Just something us fat chicks cant do I guess. Those little numbers they wear, what I would do to put one on (in the privacy on my bedroom of course) and just be able to like the way I look. Well, maybe after this diet I can. I guess its water under the bridge for now...
So here's the stats:
Day 1 - Attack phase
Weight: 189.6 (weighed myself for the first time since i decided to embark on this journey)
Height: 5'3.5"
I'm going to try and make a little widget thing for the side of my blog but I don't know how well that will work out for me. If any of you know how to do that, help a sister out!
I'm going to head to Stop'n'Shop in a little bit, and i'll park all the way at the end of the parking lot, to stock up on some protein I'm going to get tons of chicken breast, some 95% lean burger patties, ground turkey for some turkey meat balls, maybe some non-fat cottage cheese, and look for some non-fat yogurt that doesnt make me squint from the bitterness. I haven't eaten breakfast yet and it's after 11 am, I should probably go make a few eggs or something.
I have realized that when ever I try and "diet" I set a standard for myself that is unacceptable, too far off, and I loose track of what I am doing, more often than not I think it is that mistake that makes me quit. I'll tell meyself I want to loose 50 pounds, and when I don't do it in a few days I just say eff it and stop. Now, i'm not ignorant I know that I cannot loose 50 pounds over a 1 week period, but i think i just feel that the days spent counting calories and watcing what I put in my mouth is so hard, ad looking .2 pounds a day is a waste of my time. When in reality, it's not. That's why I ope DUKAN works for me, There is a strict list to eat from, eat anything else you will fail. I need to hear that. So this is my second proposed change for this diet:
MINIGOALS
-- I will only set a small goal for every day. It will always be the same, and I have to say I am pulling this theory from a program I know works ... AA..alcoholics annonymous...the goal is that Just for today I will stay on this diet.
I know it may seem cliche but thinking about dieting in the long run seems to weigh me down (no pun intended) so if I just focus on the task at hand (in this case, it's only having protein today) than I can do it. I know I can. So...JUST FOR TODAY I WLL INDULGE MYSELF IN THE GLORIOuS 9KCAL PER GRAM PROTEIN.
I really am motivated today. I want this to work. Okay, time to light the fire under my butt and get moving.
Keep it real kids
xx Baye.
ps > i got my first follower today!! woot! HI!!!
I woke up a bit late today, I had some tv shows on last night and I watched Burlesque at like 12:30 AM, so I didn't get to sleep until 3:00 easy. That was a good movie, I'm not sure why it got such poor reviews. Man those girls can move. Just something us fat chicks cant do I guess. Those little numbers they wear, what I would do to put one on (in the privacy on my bedroom of course) and just be able to like the way I look. Well, maybe after this diet I can. I guess its water under the bridge for now...
So here's the stats:
Day 1 - Attack phase
Weight: 189.6 (weighed myself for the first time since i decided to embark on this journey)
Height: 5'3.5"
I'm going to try and make a little widget thing for the side of my blog but I don't know how well that will work out for me. If any of you know how to do that, help a sister out!
I'm going to head to Stop'n'Shop in a little bit, and i'll park all the way at the end of the parking lot, to stock up on some protein I'm going to get tons of chicken breast, some 95% lean burger patties, ground turkey for some turkey meat balls, maybe some non-fat cottage cheese, and look for some non-fat yogurt that doesnt make me squint from the bitterness. I haven't eaten breakfast yet and it's after 11 am, I should probably go make a few eggs or something.
I have realized that when ever I try and "diet" I set a standard for myself that is unacceptable, too far off, and I loose track of what I am doing, more often than not I think it is that mistake that makes me quit. I'll tell meyself I want to loose 50 pounds, and when I don't do it in a few days I just say eff it and stop. Now, i'm not ignorant I know that I cannot loose 50 pounds over a 1 week period, but i think i just feel that the days spent counting calories and watcing what I put in my mouth is so hard, ad looking .2 pounds a day is a waste of my time. When in reality, it's not. That's why I ope DUKAN works for me, There is a strict list to eat from, eat anything else you will fail. I need to hear that. So this is my second proposed change for this diet:
MINIGOALS
-- I will only set a small goal for every day. It will always be the same, and I have to say I am pulling this theory from a program I know works ... AA..alcoholics annonymous...the goal is that Just for today I will stay on this diet.
I know it may seem cliche but thinking about dieting in the long run seems to weigh me down (no pun intended) so if I just focus on the task at hand (in this case, it's only having protein today) than I can do it. I know I can. So...JUST FOR TODAY I WLL INDULGE MYSELF IN THE GLORIOuS 9KCAL PER GRAM PROTEIN.
I really am motivated today. I want this to work. Okay, time to light the fire under my butt and get moving.
Keep it real kids
xx Baye.
ps > i got my first follower today!! woot! HI!!!
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Almost finished with the book
I hope everyone is having a glorious day, it was sunny here for a little while, but the clouds came rolling in, so I hopped off my raft in the pool and came inside.
I was reading the bible (aka, the dukan) it is amazing I really have high hopes and a lot of faith in this process. Though I have not started it yet, every paragraph I read I take a minute to absorb. This man has a way with words if I do day so myself.
Well, I'm going to keep reading, hopefully i'll finish it by tomorrow night so I can start first thing Monday morning.
I do have a worry though, I'm supposed to be going to a few parties in the next two weeks, ones a baby shower one is a suprise bday, what do I eat? I'm afraid.
Till next time kiddies
xx. Baye
I was reading the bible (aka, the dukan) it is amazing I really have high hopes and a lot of faith in this process. Though I have not started it yet, every paragraph I read I take a minute to absorb. This man has a way with words if I do day so myself.
Well, I'm going to keep reading, hopefully i'll finish it by tomorrow night so I can start first thing Monday morning.
I do have a worry though, I'm supposed to be going to a few parties in the next two weeks, ones a baby shower one is a suprise bday, what do I eat? I'm afraid.
Till next time kiddies
xx. Baye
Friday, June 17, 2011
The Beginning to the End, hopefully
Hmmph..well, here I am. I'm sitting on my bed on this sometimes beautiful summer day, it's kind of cloudy but the sun is beating through the window, I feel it on my back, but the second it starts to feel nice, it goes away. Kind of how I feel about myself lately. Don't get me wrong, I like myself, hell, I'd be friends with myself! but I don't physically like myself, not anymore....and I haven't for some time now. Hopefully this blog will help me sort through those feelings.
First, I want to just explain that while I hope to get to know all of you (if anyone is actually reading this) on a personal level, but for the time being, I can't. I can't because..well...this is a secret, my secret, my secret journey through something that I have wanted for a very very very long time. This is a WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY- with the DUKAN DIET
Wow, I can't believe I actually said that, I can't believe I'm actually writing a weight loss blog. BAH!!
I guess my story begins well into my childhood. I think the first time I ever really felt like I was the ugly girl was when I was 8 maybe? I remember there was a girl in my class that had this really nice pretty white peasant shirt and she wore it and I really liked it, I think I went home that day and I asked my mom to get me something like it, but we didn't have a lot of money, and my mom was always in a really bad mood when I was a kid (later I learned that she was, and still is, an alcoholic -- but she's recovering now) any way, I don't think I ended up getting the shirt, but I remember going to school and thinking I would never be as pretty as that girl, and from then on, I always compared myself to what the other girls in my school had. I know, it's sick right? an 8 year old thinking like that? well it went on for a really long time. I was never popular in school, I never had nice clothes, and I had this thing with boys, they just never really paid attention to me. I never really knew why until I was in 4th grade, I didn't have many friends, I think I had one friend in my class, she lived in a really big house and had a lot of the coolest clothes, and the most popular girl in my class didn't like me at all, I dont know why, she just didn't, and she tried to steal my friend. When I tried to be the popular girls friend she said she didn't like me because I was fat. OH HELLO NEGATIVE BODY IMAGE, NICE TO MEET YOU.
Now you're probably thinking, this girl must have been a really overweight child. But truthfully, I wasn't that overweight, probably 10 pounds as a 10 year old girl? but think about it, at 10 years old, we are at the most impressionable we ever could be, and this is what I hear? I'm sure I went home and ate some milano cookies or something out of my cupboard because I was sad that she told me I was fat.
I guess that was the start of everything, from then on I always was quiet, I hated gym class, I lived in stretchy pants and t shirts, I had a few friends, and I just tried to be content with myself while loving to sneak cookies and cake and all other goodies that represented "fat" because that's what I was. It probably would have been easier to try and tackle the problem then, but I didn't.
On to middle/high school. 4 best friends, some acquaintances later.. I started to lighten up on myself, kind of accepted myself for what I was. Meadeocar (sp?) at best, physically, and intellectually. My 4 best friends each kind of had the little niche they fit into, there was the smart one, the funny one, the cute one, and then there was me, which one was I? I know they loved me, but I was always the brunt of their jokes calling me stupid, ugly, not funny. I didn't get it really. It wasn't until I turned 16 that these things really caught up to me. They were my friends and I loved them dearly, but their jokes hurt my feelings, and I never understood why they did it. I said it to them one day, why do you say these things to me, and my one friend, we'll call her Jill, said "We don't mean it, it's just that...you're the prettiest one of us, and we do it as a joke..to make us feel better" WOAH, did that really just happen? Did she really call me pretty?
I found myself looking in the mirror that night, I smiled to myself, and I saw something that I didn't know was there. Beauty. I'm not going as far as to say that I am absoloutley gorgeous or even beautiful, but at the moment, and even now, I know that I am a pretty girl, I do have a nice face, but I still struggle every day with the rest of my body. If I could be a floating head sometimes I think I would!
I stand 5'3" tall. and I weigh 190 pounds.
I hate to say that. I do. It like, gives me stomach cramps everytime I look at those numbers. But it's the bitter truth. and I need to do something about it once and for all.
I just realized this blog entry is really long, but there is more to say. I hope you stick with me for just a few more pararaphs :-)
When I was 16 I got my first real boyfriend. That lasted amost 2 Years. I found myself going from about 150 pounds to probably 180. When we broke up I dropped 20 pounds easily from stress. I was single for almost a year when I started dating my current boyfriend (5 years together now). I gained that 20 pounds back plus 10. Nice. NOT
So I'm here now to embark on yet another diet. I say another because over the past 5 years since gaining this weight, I have tried to do the 6 week body makeover diet (lost about 10 pounds before giving up) and i did the whole weight watchers online deal too, that was soo easy to cheat on, Forking over the 50 bucks for 3 months was basically a waste.
I got word of the DUKAN DIET around the time of the royal wedding (yay will and kate) I noticed Kate looked slimmer. I was watching E! News and they said she worked the Dukan for a few weeks before the wedding and it worked wonderfully. It got my mind going. I contemplated looking into the diet, but I couldn't help but think about all the other failed attempts. Why would this be so different?
I gave in to my curiosity on Monday June 13, after I took the biggest exam of my life for my future career, I figured hey, this test is going to change my professional future pass or fail, might as well change the physical future as well. I purchased the book at B&N for $20. I dont remember the last time I spent 20 bucks on a book, let alone a diet book. This thing better be worth it.
It's Friday now, I'm 100 pages in. This man is amazing. I love how he gives you persciptions and no loop holes. He tells you it's all or nothing. I love his methods of teaching his readers how to succeed. This is a marvelous book. Whether you plan on dieting with the dukan or not, it has some valuable nutritional information anyone could use.
I plan on finishing the book over the next three days, and beginning my dukan diet journey once I close the back cover. I feel it best to read the book through, then re-read each phase as I enter it. I like to know what I'm getting into if you know what I mean.
I hope this blog finds you when you need to relate to someone, be it for weight issues, friend issues, professional life, or love life. I'm a normal girl, 24 years old. I should say woman.
While I won't reveal my real name, where I live, or what I look like, I am a real person, capable of real feelings, and possibly some real advice too. I want to read blogs and relate to them, I hope some of you can relate to my blog too.
You can call me Baye. It's not my name, but it's serene and calming, and That is what I am looking for through this journey. Calmness and fulfillment.
Hope to hear some you, if anyone's out there
xx. Baye
PS >> the inspiration behind this blog came from reading the success stories on www.dukandiet.com Brianna in particular. Shes wonderful. check her out. http://beatlekitten.blogspot.com/
First, I want to just explain that while I hope to get to know all of you (if anyone is actually reading this) on a personal level, but for the time being, I can't. I can't because..well...this is a secret, my secret, my secret journey through something that I have wanted for a very very very long time. This is a WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY- with the DUKAN DIET
Wow, I can't believe I actually said that, I can't believe I'm actually writing a weight loss blog. BAH!!
I guess my story begins well into my childhood. I think the first time I ever really felt like I was the ugly girl was when I was 8 maybe? I remember there was a girl in my class that had this really nice pretty white peasant shirt and she wore it and I really liked it, I think I went home that day and I asked my mom to get me something like it, but we didn't have a lot of money, and my mom was always in a really bad mood when I was a kid (later I learned that she was, and still is, an alcoholic -- but she's recovering now) any way, I don't think I ended up getting the shirt, but I remember going to school and thinking I would never be as pretty as that girl, and from then on, I always compared myself to what the other girls in my school had. I know, it's sick right? an 8 year old thinking like that? well it went on for a really long time. I was never popular in school, I never had nice clothes, and I had this thing with boys, they just never really paid attention to me. I never really knew why until I was in 4th grade, I didn't have many friends, I think I had one friend in my class, she lived in a really big house and had a lot of the coolest clothes, and the most popular girl in my class didn't like me at all, I dont know why, she just didn't, and she tried to steal my friend. When I tried to be the popular girls friend she said she didn't like me because I was fat. OH HELLO NEGATIVE BODY IMAGE, NICE TO MEET YOU.
Now you're probably thinking, this girl must have been a really overweight child. But truthfully, I wasn't that overweight, probably 10 pounds as a 10 year old girl? but think about it, at 10 years old, we are at the most impressionable we ever could be, and this is what I hear? I'm sure I went home and ate some milano cookies or something out of my cupboard because I was sad that she told me I was fat.
I guess that was the start of everything, from then on I always was quiet, I hated gym class, I lived in stretchy pants and t shirts, I had a few friends, and I just tried to be content with myself while loving to sneak cookies and cake and all other goodies that represented "fat" because that's what I was. It probably would have been easier to try and tackle the problem then, but I didn't.
On to middle/high school. 4 best friends, some acquaintances later.. I started to lighten up on myself, kind of accepted myself for what I was. Meadeocar (sp?) at best, physically, and intellectually. My 4 best friends each kind of had the little niche they fit into, there was the smart one, the funny one, the cute one, and then there was me, which one was I? I know they loved me, but I was always the brunt of their jokes calling me stupid, ugly, not funny. I didn't get it really. It wasn't until I turned 16 that these things really caught up to me. They were my friends and I loved them dearly, but their jokes hurt my feelings, and I never understood why they did it. I said it to them one day, why do you say these things to me, and my one friend, we'll call her Jill, said "We don't mean it, it's just that...you're the prettiest one of us, and we do it as a joke..to make us feel better" WOAH, did that really just happen? Did she really call me pretty?
I found myself looking in the mirror that night, I smiled to myself, and I saw something that I didn't know was there. Beauty. I'm not going as far as to say that I am absoloutley gorgeous or even beautiful, but at the moment, and even now, I know that I am a pretty girl, I do have a nice face, but I still struggle every day with the rest of my body. If I could be a floating head sometimes I think I would!
I stand 5'3" tall. and I weigh 190 pounds.
I hate to say that. I do. It like, gives me stomach cramps everytime I look at those numbers. But it's the bitter truth. and I need to do something about it once and for all.
I just realized this blog entry is really long, but there is more to say. I hope you stick with me for just a few more pararaphs :-)
When I was 16 I got my first real boyfriend. That lasted amost 2 Years. I found myself going from about 150 pounds to probably 180. When we broke up I dropped 20 pounds easily from stress. I was single for almost a year when I started dating my current boyfriend (5 years together now). I gained that 20 pounds back plus 10. Nice. NOT
So I'm here now to embark on yet another diet. I say another because over the past 5 years since gaining this weight, I have tried to do the 6 week body makeover diet (lost about 10 pounds before giving up) and i did the whole weight watchers online deal too, that was soo easy to cheat on, Forking over the 50 bucks for 3 months was basically a waste.
I got word of the DUKAN DIET around the time of the royal wedding (yay will and kate) I noticed Kate looked slimmer. I was watching E! News and they said she worked the Dukan for a few weeks before the wedding and it worked wonderfully. It got my mind going. I contemplated looking into the diet, but I couldn't help but think about all the other failed attempts. Why would this be so different?
I gave in to my curiosity on Monday June 13, after I took the biggest exam of my life for my future career, I figured hey, this test is going to change my professional future pass or fail, might as well change the physical future as well. I purchased the book at B&N for $20. I dont remember the last time I spent 20 bucks on a book, let alone a diet book. This thing better be worth it.
It's Friday now, I'm 100 pages in. This man is amazing. I love how he gives you persciptions and no loop holes. He tells you it's all or nothing. I love his methods of teaching his readers how to succeed. This is a marvelous book. Whether you plan on dieting with the dukan or not, it has some valuable nutritional information anyone could use.
I plan on finishing the book over the next three days, and beginning my dukan diet journey once I close the back cover. I feel it best to read the book through, then re-read each phase as I enter it. I like to know what I'm getting into if you know what I mean.
I hope this blog finds you when you need to relate to someone, be it for weight issues, friend issues, professional life, or love life. I'm a normal girl, 24 years old. I should say woman.
While I won't reveal my real name, where I live, or what I look like, I am a real person, capable of real feelings, and possibly some real advice too. I want to read blogs and relate to them, I hope some of you can relate to my blog too.
You can call me Baye. It's not my name, but it's serene and calming, and That is what I am looking for through this journey. Calmness and fulfillment.
Hope to hear some you, if anyone's out there
xx. Baye
PS >> the inspiration behind this blog came from reading the success stories on www.dukandiet.com Brianna in particular. Shes wonderful. check her out. http://beatlekitten.blogspot.com/
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